These past 24 hours have been so eventful, its really worn me down like never before. Janine started a Kindergarten-readiness program and just had her first day on Monday. Monday is also my Mom’s birthday, shout out to her (even though she’ll probably never see this). To top it all off my phone was stolen Sunday night while I was playing basketball at the Mira Mesa Rec Center. I’ll dive deeper into these events and it will reveal the big significance in my life as of today.
Janine starting school today was another milestone she has accomplished. There are not many 5 year olds that have gone through what she has gone in her life so far. The crazy part is that its just getting started. These past 5 years have flew right by me. It goes to show how precious our time is here on Earth. Janine has shown me more about myself than anyone I’ve known. After 5 years of fatherhood, it’s been proven that I am selfish, impatient, arrogant, I get mad easily, I hold grudges, etc. I am aware of these flaws in myself and my parenting. Despite these shortcomings, Janine has a perfect and loving Father. No, it’s not me, its the Father in Heaven and I thank God that He is perfect. The truth is, I can provide financially and I can be physically there and active while parenting, but that all stems from the love that I have received from God. I am not perfect, but He is. This doesn’t mean that I neglect my duties as a parent, but rather God’s grace allows me to strive to be the best parent like Him, His grace is not an excuse to be mediocre, it is my greatest motivation.
My mom’s birthday is today. Growing up, I can unashamedly admit that I was a Mama’s boy. My dad was in the Navy, so I was with my mom 24/7. I thank God for having such a loving and supportive mom. I’m aware that I have been a disappointment in many areas of my life, but not once did my Mom ever quit on me. That within itself is amazing.
To end this roller coaster ride, my phone was stolen. To anyone who know’s me, I have relied on my phone for everything, especially since my computer was broken a couple months ago. Having my phone was stolen was a blessing in disguise (even though it is quite an inconvenience at the moment). This generation has been so consumed with technology that if we’re not careful, we may be too dependent on it. We often miss the beauty of this life because our eyes are so glued to our phones. To whoever stole my phone, I hope and pray that you would come to know the error of your ways. You can steal my wallet, my car. or any other material item. You can take all these things away from me, but you can never take away what I value most: my relationship with Jesus Christ. I count these things of this world as rubbish compared to the surpassing worth of knowing my Savior. Nobody can ever take that away. Nobody.